LATELY (SPOILERS ON THIS, PLS BEWARE)

Hello, I am here to talk to you about how Game of Thrones is ruining my life. The fourth series just wrapped a few weeks ago and I have been on a roller coaster of emotions since then. We've witnessed some of the most shocking deaths this season (one of them a really glorifying one hehe), but nothing's new. (Although I can still hear some of you thinking out loud about the Rains of Castamere episode because jesus christ, nothing beats the Red Wedding and believe it or not, just the thought of it gives me goosebumps, GOD). 

Anyway, I've grown so fond of this certain character since the second series that I ended up thinking about her everyday. There were days I'd sit and think about her and Jon together and I'd be so happy. Fictional character have been such a big part of my life since the dawn of Harry Potter but this one really got me. I loved her character so much--a dynamic, strong, and independent character. Never thought I'd love someone as much as I love Dany, really. And yes, I rooted so hard for her and Jon. I shipped them so damn well. 

She always knew Jon never really lost his ties to the Night's Watch even after that tryst in the cave. But she still trusted him and he trusted her. She loved him so much, she stopped caring about where his true self belongs. She loved him, goddammit. And he loved her. But then of course this is television show. Jon left her and she stuck three arrows at him (one of my favorite Ygritte moments, yes. How I wish I could do that). And then the unthinkable happens, because jesus, this is GoT we're talking about. Your favorite characters don't really survive. 

She dies. I swear the moment I saw the arrow struck her through the heart I paused the whole thing and cried, lol. I don't like talking about this because it still hurts but it really brought me to tears. I had real emotions running through my whole system HAHA. 

I guess you could say I also shipped them in real life. And I feel like I'd get a lot of disapprovals from other fans but I don't really ship Jon and Daenerys? The thought of them ruling Westeros together doesn't really click for me. WOW I FEEL SO ALONE ON THIS ONE. I always envisioned Dany ruling Westeros all by herself without a man by her side (or maybe marrying isn't really a bad idea, just not with Jon lol). ALSO KIT AND EMILIA..... I just don't. Call me daft and stupid, okay. 

There were rumors that Kit and Rose dated in real life (there were even photos AHA) but Kit won't even confirm it and okay, I understand. So let's just take a look at this! Why can't we just see them as good best friends? They are so cute look at them. I learned that you don't really have to ship people together in order for you to not get hurt over their death in this television show they participated in. lol. 

I could imagine them going to Glastonbury/Coachella together and they'd dance around just like real good friends. So people, let's all calm down. (I think this a note for myself because deep inside I still ship them so hard on or off screen). (I'm doing this to not get sad over Ygritte). (MY LIFE IS A JOKE). (I'M STILL SO SAD). 

SO ANYWAY!!! I've just started watching Doctor Who! I've been meaning to watch this since, like, 2011. But I wasn't too keen on doing so; I was afraid I might get bored and end up sweeping it under the rug. But lo and behold, I was wrong! It's such an interesting show. The fandom wasn't wrong. I learned a lot about time traveling and astrophysics, thanks to this show. I'm now on the second season AND THE TENTH DOCTOR JUST ARRIVED AHEHEHE. I always knew David Tennant was the tenth doctor but watching the him emerge on the last episode of the first series gave me a lot of feelings!!!!!!!!! I love this show so much. 

I feel so smart whenever I watch this show, I don't know why. It's like ever information about the extinction of the Time Lords and the power of the daleks just pops out of nowhere. And to think that I'm only on the second season. I've got so much to learn and to look forward too. I've got a lot of feelings I have yet to feel, hehe. OH AND CAPTAIN JACK HARKNESS. Such charisma. 

Now I'm obsessed with the idea of buying the TARDIS figure and the sonic screwdriver. 

Yes of course this never gets out of mind. I love how this is set in present time but you can still feel the 18th-19th century vibe due to Benedict Cumberbatch's...lovely face. I'm so in love. I wish they had more episodes in a series. I don't know why it took me so long to watch these shows. I've been seeing a lot of them on tumblr since like, 2010 but I never really tried them. Sorry, self. (I think it's because I was too busy with my Harry Potter blog back then HAHAHA). 

YES FOR WOMEN!!! I absolutely love this show not only because it's funny and so real, but also because it's on the side of teaching people how not to degrade women as the inferior. I think this is a fresh start for Hollywood. It's funny, promotes feminism and is really just about how women really feel. I love this show. This deserves an Emmy because, YAY WOMEN! YAY FOR FEMINISM WITHOUT MISANDRY!!!

I still have a lot of shows to watch like Misfits and Breaking Bad but school's starting next week (COLLEGE, HOLY SHIT). I don't want to think about it yet, even though it's like two days away. This has been my life for the past few weeks: crying about Ygritte, and worshipping these shows. 

I don't want to start college yet. 

til tonight do us part

I was starting to feel like my favorite band has betrayed me, for not making any announcements, for not mentioning their band's previous achievements and for not talking about their songs and the year 2006. I was losing hope. But then, six months ago, Fall Out Boy decided to come back and save rock and roll. I was in complete and utter shock because it was all of a sudden. Well I was kind of expecting it to happen, since a lot of people from the music industry are giving off hints on twitter and other social networking sites that Fall Out Boy are coming back and are planning to have a reunion. But there are still doubts like, "Hey, this is just a hoax." I wasn't too lax on the idea of them coming back, unless the band announced it themselves. 

On the night of February 3, 2013, I was on twitter and people are starting to panic: typing on caps lock, tLAKing lieK THiss!!, and the words "fall out boy" can be seen in every tweet. I started to join the commotion as well because my feelings... can't. I read somewhere that "Fall Out Boy are making a big announcement on Q87.7 tomorrow morning!"And that's it. I started screaming and jumping and crying AND EVERYTHING FELT SO RIGHT. Everything was in place, and it felt so good to be alive. The big announcement came and then came the new single. February 4, 2013. They are officially back and no one can stop them. I still remember this post I made from February. Four years worth of waiting, those nights spent on listening to Chicago Is So Two Years Ago and feeling nostalgic. I can definitely say that it was all so worth it. 

Fast-forward to August. This is it, I thought. I'm going to see them live for the first time and I still can't believe it. And so the show began and my ten-year old self is screaming with delight and it's 2007 all over again. I remember the first time I saw them, in a magazine, confused of their identities, and why this certain guy is wearing eyeliner. Thriller's beat brought it all back and I can feel the pulse of the crowd. We were all singing and it felt glorious. 

I don't want to bore you with a long post of how I spent my Thursday night with the anti-heroes, and the band who stand up for the weirdoes. But I can definitely say that if I were to be asked about the people I look up to, Fall Out Boy will be on top of the list. Their performance is not just something we have to rate or whatsoever, it's something we have to remember. You were with the crowd, your lungs are giving out because of singing, the pulsing of the lights, the glorious feeling you get--that's something you have to keep. Fall Out Boy made it all happen. From the long wait in line to the spiels and the screaming roar of agreement of the crowd. Fall Out Boy was, as Fiel mentioned it on her blog, so raw and magnetic. I can't even put to words how amazing they are and I'm running out of adjectives. And nouns. Whatever. 

Thank you, Fall Out Boy, for not letting us down and for making us feel contagious.