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Have you ever come across a band that you wanted to waste your time (and maybe the tears) on? I've had enough trouble with some of the bands I got myself into; they drained me. I still love them with all my heart but there's just an insurmountable amount of things that I can't ignore! Not that I got tired of them, it just feels liberating to not feel like I'm missing out on such a hype whenever they do something new, like release new songs, world tour updates etc., etc., etc. ((I STILL LOVE FALL OUT BOY THOUGH MY HEART IS STILL WITH THEM I AM STILL #FAITHFUL)) 

I guess what I'm trying to say is my personality went out, had a little walk, and went inside a new genre, to do a little exploring... lol. Not that I have been stuck in one genre in forever, but I thought about having new and diverse perspectives! It's fun, actually, to get myself into ~such great heights~ !!! 

I've read a lot about The Strokes since I was in high school but I never really paid them the attention they deserved (which makes me feel sorry for myself). I was such a melodramatic bitch back then, I don't know how I had the guts to ignore them because clearly, they could've contributed to those nights I couldn't endure because I can't find the right song. Also, from what I've read from their interviews, I could've been more insightful and articulate as them, DAMN. 

All thanks to my very good friend Fiel, I finally (FINALLY) gave them a chance. Being an avid reader of Fiel's blog, I've had external knowledge about this band since... maybe when she started talking about them most of the time on twitter, lol. (Thanks again, Fiel.) I started listening to them on a ~religious level~, as I'd like to describe it, weeks ago and I'd like to congratulate myself for doing so. Fiel made me watch this documentary about their European tour, In Transit, and I'm so grateful because it made me like them more, huhu. My favorite album would be Room on Fire, because most of my favorite songs are from that album!!! Those songs speak to me so much it's weird, since I've only started listening to them weeks ago. 

Anyway, here are some shitty screenshots (I watched it on my iPad because my laptop had no charger; I couldn't wait the next morning to borrow the charger from my cousin). (I can download a clearer version, anyway, and watch it every time I feel like it HEH.)

   

This part seemed important to me because it's like a greeting from a new dimension of interest (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ

Julian, ~interviewed~ by Ryan Gentles. Ryan was asking him how he feels about the tour in  Europe 

I LAUGHED WAY TOO HARD AT THIS PART, I DON'T KNOW WHY? 

Also this part seemed very important. A smile slowly formed on my face because I thought about how those small-town bands start very small in their garage: limited number of photocopied fliers about their upcoming gig, cheap beer, the horror that the neighbors might call the cops and the phone calls they have to make to get themselves a functional van to get them to a small bar outside town just so they could play in front of a few people - and that's something.

I can't stress enough how this scene made me think a lot about being in a band oh, my god. Look at them pushing!!! Doesn't that make you ambitious about the things you dream of at night •╭╮•

In which I freaked out because I didn't know The Moldy Peaches were touring with them! Kimya Dawson took me by surprise when I saw her face at the ferry scene whie they were on their way to Ireland! So niceeEEEE

IT WAS VERY HARD YET AMUSING TO WATCH THIS. I wish I could say the woman was joking BUT SHE WASN'T because the boys were just laughing and spewing vitriol over how shitty this is. I was very uncomfortable because I almost thought she did it on purpose to make the boys feel like they don't belong there, that they deserve the shade and the occasional sly-digging. This doesn't make any sense now because... YES. 

I love how this holiday break gave me the chance to orient myself to new things!! This post (I think) signals the start of my commitment to the new world. Thank you, Ze Strokes. 

Also yay, a new band to get anxious about (.❂‿❂.)

please don't make this harder

       

Hello. It just dawned on me that life has been very uneventful lately, hence the absence of updates for two months. All thanks to college and my lack of cooperation with the world, I decidedly ignored my hunger for the things I want to orient myself into. You know what I mean - books, television series, movies, the arts, music and of course the people. It kinda makes me sad because I missed out on so many, many, many things and I wasted an awful lot of time. To think that I wasted my time studying would cause a little stir within me because hey, I got pretty decent grades. But I just can't let go of the fact that it took me about 16 weeks to finish a book because my studies got in the way. In those sixteen weeks I was itching to do something worthwhile, other than poring my head over my readings. In those sixteen weeks I felt very anxious because I felt like I wasn't learning anything. In those sixteen weeks I thought about transferring to a different college to take up an art course. In those sixteen weeks I endured the pressure I put upon myself for being a stubborn, ungrateful seventeen-year-old girl because I lacked sleep. On a lighter note, I reminded myself that at least i'm not as ignorant as some of my classmates are. LOL. 

It makes me uncomfortable to think about those sixteen weeks because it reminds me of how vapid I am. I really need to work on my patience and stubbornness. 

With our holiday break, which started a little too early (from November 21st), I got all the time I need to catch up on those things. I was so excited because I got to snatch back the sleep that was stolen from me. Also, I got the chance to ~get in touch~ with my feelings. Not much has changed; it's still the same. It's depressing to think about because I want it go away. Funny how today marks the anniversary of my stupidity over a guy and a mixtape. Trust me, the story of ~us~ got worse.  

The reason why I used Xavier Dolan's character from the movie Les amours imaginaires (more on this soon!) is because I felt his character so much!!! I promise to give you a background on this VERY SOON. God, I missed sharing the movies I absolutely love and writing bad reviews about it. 

Wow i sound so delusional and selfish and narcissistic.