why i love december

Well... used to. I used to treat December as the most special month in all twelve of them. But growing up made me feel like it's just another month. I've felt this ever since I turned 14. I'm 18 now and I swear I'm not lying when I say I'm trying to be festive even though it's not really the right time for me, due to the unpleasant surprises that came my way. But anyway, I'm proud to say that it's been lovely, the past few weeks. I've been planning and planning about the future--my future--and it's exciting to imagine the next two years: having a job and earning my own money and graduating! I can't wait to graduate. So far, the following kept me grounded for two weeks now:

• Applying for a part-time job at Starbucks for next year (This is quite shaky at the moment but I'm very sure and determined about this because there's literally no turning back. I've made up my mind and I really need to earn my own money and be slightly independent.)
• ...Getting excited over the money I will certainly earn for next year, and spending it on a film camera or two...
• Listing all the movies I've seen and have yet to see. This is a fun yet challenging quest for the holidays, because I have this certain fear of dying without having seen all the best movies there are. I'm so paranoid about this at night, that I wake up at 3 or 4am and mentally remind myself to download this and that, and to check all the film blogs on my bookmark page. I'm weird but I'm very happy :( Because film keeps me grounded :(
• Reading Murakami as much as I can
• Exploring all the music I need to explore
• Brainstorming about an art project I want to share (film related of course)
• All the shows with bands I'm going to with my friends!!!

This doesn't really justify the fact that I need to vent out my feelings for the holidays, because this is an explanatory post about why I loved the holidays, then felt indifferent for it, then came to the decision that I should love it again. These playlists wouldn't probably elicit any holiday musing for you, but these have been my national anthems for two months now. I hope you enjoy.

 
 

Here's the real list of reasons why the holidays make me feel and remember everything: 

• The Christmas songs are always lovely. You can literally jam to them any time of the year. March, April, June. It's July and you hear Christmas songs and suddenly you start counting down the days 'til Christmas. I for one am a Christmas song enthusiast (I think everyone of us is) and hearing them makes me feel all smiley and forgiving (even though I shouldn't be. Joke lang).
• The weather is always lovely. This year's weather is extra cold, and all my sweaters are thanking me for the extra usage. 
• Gifts and the strict implementation of TREAT YOSELF. I recently just spent a lot on make-up, clothes, and food because I deserved it. Hell yeah, I do. Because if you say otherwise I will throw a fit and prove my point!!! I will filibuster my way to victory if I have to. 
• Back to five films a day - self-explanatory 
• Spontaneous day-outs with my family 
• THE FOOD, MGA BEH. THE FOOD. I don't need to explain this at all, because food in our family is either good or vert fucken GOOD. 
• TV Series marathons from day to night. I will never get tired of re-watching gravity falls and adventure time on my laptop, at 4am. 
• Seeing your friends from high school. I guess this should be on top of my list because being with them gives me such a breeze. They're a breath of fresh air. Literally a break from all the bullshit college gave me.
• MATCHA BLOW POPS. I rest my case. 
• Basically being home for the holidays, not bothered by everything. And having the life you want to live, despite having an expiration date.

This year started out great for me, not knowing that it would end up being shitty. But it still brought me a lot of blessings along the way. I guess I should still be thankful because what is a life of heaven without hell, anyways? (wow gumaganern). 2015 has been an eye-opener of all sorts, and for that I am thankful. I still have myself, my matcha blow pops and my real friends. I AM STILL HASHTAG BLESSED. 

So tell me how you feel about the holidays, by commenting your blog link below! Let's all talk about 2015 and how it gave you everything you need to learn about life, and public transport (kasi grabe ang traffic this year, pang pinoy pride pUNYETA).