why not try it all?

I honestly feel bad for not having decent posts from 2014 to look back on, so I'll try to make this one worth reading (although my subconscious tells me only two or three people actually read my blog and that includes me). 

I only had seventeen posts from 2014 and it's such a small number compared to the actual adventures I had, the books I read, the movies I've seen, the new music I discovered, and the friends I made. Anyway, just like any other new year's resolution list, I keep telling myself to do these more:

• Read: I always find myself longing for all the books I want to read and re-read. I've recently just updated my goodreads account after ignoring it for months. I don't know  if I decidedly ignored it or if I had most of my time dedicated to studying and sleeping. I plan to read a hundred books (or more) before this year ends; I want to cultivate and improve my grammar!!! I downloaded sixty (more or less) e-books on my iPad to get ready for my goal this 2015. But it gets tough because the glare of the screen is killing my eyes and I get astigmatism attacks every now and then!!! So yes, another plan of mine is to save more money for books (and a new bookshelf). 

• Write: I have friends who are such great writers and I can't help but feel like a stranger whenever I read their writings, formal or not. I'm such a sucker for people who could write very well; it inspires me to do better and to write more. I've been meaning to write a lot about the things around me, but I can't find the drive--and I hate myself for thinking that I have to find the drive ("That is such bullshit!") to be able to write. I learned that if you really have the roaring hunger to write, you will write amidst everything, be it bad or very bad. Reading reviews on goodreads has been a hobby of mine for so long and reading other people's book reviews give me such hope and the motivation to write more like them. I'm a journalism student and I still find myself crawling in the dark whenever I try to write something satirical and poetic; it's kind of embarrassing. So here's to a year of trying (and succeeding, I hope). 

• Take more pictures: I've always been a big fan of photographs and as a thirteen-year-old girl, I dreamed of having my own camera. I had two digital cameras before I landed myself in a DSLR (thanks to my mother). This year, I'll try to bring my camera everyday and take photos of everything and everyone. Then maybe formulate a story from every picture I took. That's a very interesting thing to do, since I like forming stories in my head; from the people I see on the bus on my way to school, the buildings, the roads, everything. Also, my goal for this year is to print my own photographs! (Another reason for me to save more). 

• Do more art: Summer 2014 has been the longest and most productive summer for me, despite the lack of adventures offered by the outside world. I fell in love with watercolor and went back to sketching. School stopped me from creating more, but I have been mapping out some plans to improve my time management!!! My best friend and I have had plans of selling stickers for so long now, you don't even know. I decided that painting the designs myself would be much cooler because watercolored pictures look really pretty. But I somehow failed because I have been uninspired lately, and I hate copying other people's style, lol. SO, YES FOR ART BECAUSE ART MAKES ME HAPPY.

I have more plans for this 2015 but no one really cares OMG LET'S BE HONEST. But for this year, I plan to practice empathy more often, listen to what everyone has to say, and do everything I can to be happy (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ 

I've been obsessing over this song for a week now! I chose the underwater tea party scene from the movie Somewhere (2010) because I loved how I was watching the movie and thought about sitting down, doing nothing and being happy. Also because I think the song speaks so much about *:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟlife *:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ
Happy New Year!!!

SUB-PAR

Have you ever come across a band that you wanted to waste your time (and maybe the tears) on? I've had enough trouble with some of the bands I got myself into; they drained me. I still love them with all my heart but there's just an insurmountable amount of things that I can't ignore! Not that I got tired of them, it just feels liberating to not feel like I'm missing out on such a hype whenever they do something new, like release new songs, world tour updates etc., etc., etc. ((I STILL LOVE FALL OUT BOY THOUGH MY HEART IS STILL WITH THEM I AM STILL #FAITHFUL)) 

I guess what I'm trying to say is my personality went out, had a little walk, and went inside a new genre, to do a little exploring... lol. Not that I have been stuck in one genre in forever, but I thought about having new and diverse perspectives! It's fun, actually, to get myself into ~such great heights~ !!! 

I've read a lot about The Strokes since I was in high school but I never really paid them the attention they deserved (which makes me feel sorry for myself). I was such a melodramatic bitch back then, I don't know how I had the guts to ignore them because clearly, they could've contributed to those nights I couldn't endure because I can't find the right song. Also, from what I've read from their interviews, I could've been more insightful and articulate as them, DAMN. 

All thanks to my very good friend Fiel, I finally (FINALLY) gave them a chance. Being an avid reader of Fiel's blog, I've had external knowledge about this band since... maybe when she started talking about them most of the time on twitter, lol. (Thanks again, Fiel.) I started listening to them on a ~religious level~, as I'd like to describe it, weeks ago and I'd like to congratulate myself for doing so. Fiel made me watch this documentary about their European tour, In Transit, and I'm so grateful because it made me like them more, huhu. My favorite album would be Room on Fire, because most of my favorite songs are from that album!!! Those songs speak to me so much it's weird, since I've only started listening to them weeks ago. 

Anyway, here are some shitty screenshots (I watched it on my iPad because my laptop had no charger; I couldn't wait the next morning to borrow the charger from my cousin). (I can download a clearer version, anyway, and watch it every time I feel like it HEH.)

   

This part seemed important to me because it's like a greeting from a new dimension of interest (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ

Julian, ~interviewed~ by Ryan Gentles. Ryan was asking him how he feels about the tour in  Europe 

I LAUGHED WAY TOO HARD AT THIS PART, I DON'T KNOW WHY? 

Also this part seemed very important. A smile slowly formed on my face because I thought about how those small-town bands start very small in their garage: limited number of photocopied fliers about their upcoming gig, cheap beer, the horror that the neighbors might call the cops and the phone calls they have to make to get themselves a functional van to get them to a small bar outside town just so they could play in front of a few people - and that's something.

I can't stress enough how this scene made me think a lot about being in a band oh, my god. Look at them pushing!!! Doesn't that make you ambitious about the things you dream of at night •╭╮•

In which I freaked out because I didn't know The Moldy Peaches were touring with them! Kimya Dawson took me by surprise when I saw her face at the ferry scene whie they were on their way to Ireland! So niceeEEEE

IT WAS VERY HARD YET AMUSING TO WATCH THIS. I wish I could say the woman was joking BUT SHE WASN'T because the boys were just laughing and spewing vitriol over how shitty this is. I was very uncomfortable because I almost thought she did it on purpose to make the boys feel like they don't belong there, that they deserve the shade and the occasional sly-digging. This doesn't make any sense now because... YES. 

I love how this holiday break gave me the chance to orient myself to new things!! This post (I think) signals the start of my commitment to the new world. Thank you, Ze Strokes. 

Also yay, a new band to get anxious about (.❂‿❂.)