Do or Die: Part II

UPCAT two weeks ago. I was basically holding onto myself and telling myself that it isn't the end of the world, that I can do this and that, there are way too many chances for me to get in, hey stop doing that to yourself and blah blah blah BUT WHO AM I KIDDING. They said 83,000++ senior students took the UPCAT. And I wanted to go home and sleep because I can feel the pressure seeping through me and I JUST WANT TO ESCAPE. I wanted to cry and curse UP for the right-minus-wrong thing. But I can't do anything about it. "Screw it," I muttered to myself. I opened the car door and I almost fell on the slippery sidewalk. It was raining and I thought WOW IS THIS A BAD OMEN? My dad said the almost-accident took away the bad omen and that I'll do good.

And then I'm inside this room with white lights screaming that my terrible fate is nearing and that resistance is futile, I have to shade these oblongs. And so I did. It was worse than I thought but I managed to answer with pure reasoning. Trusting my instincts helped a lot so, thank you, instincts. I owe you. And goddamn, was Science hard?! My brain was jumping up and down and I was screaming inside. "What are vacuoles", "WHERE THE HELL CAN WE FIND THE MITHOCONDRIA", "do these phenotypes and genotypes really exist" "This is so stupid why do you have to know the speed of the car". 

And the rest I don't want to talk about. The five-hour exam is finally O-V-E-R over. I ate two barbecues to celebrate. This stall in front of Law Center sells good barbecue and I can see myself eating here. But then again, I still have to pass the UPCAT to eat barbecues. 

Anyway my dad and I explored the whole school for fun. One of the reasons why I want to study here is because of the number of trees surrounding the whole campus. It was amazing and so I took pictures. I felt like a tourist lost in a city. No, not a city, but a tourist lost in... her thoughts. (Wow so emo.)

The very famous Oblation. The moment I saw it, I told myself that I have to pass the UPCAT. There were goosebumps at the back of my head and I wanted to.... cry. I know, so melodramatic; so pathetic. This is my dream school. This will always be my dream school. I would have these intentional nods whenever I hear someone talk about UP. I would think about that glorious feeling. And just... okay. 

My birthday is on June 10th and I got all giddy when I saw this. Jack Barakat was born on June 18th, Pete Wentz on June 5th, my best friend, Sam, June 3rd. Magnificent things happen every month of June. I am blessed HEHEHEHEH.

can we all look at the traffic 

thank u america thank u so much

tourist photo #1 HEHEHEHE i felt so stupid when i took this photo oh my god but hey, my chucks look pretty, don't they? i love them they're my favorite

this place is so peaceful

tourist photo #2 hahahaha i'm sorry i just have to 

This is my favorite photo of all. I don't know why. I think it's the fact that you don't have to edit this photo...

COLLEGE OF ARTS & LETTERS. DID YOU KNOW THAT MY FIRST COURSE CHOICE IS ENGLISH STUDIES AND MY SECOND IS JOURNALISM? YOU DIDN'T? WELL NOW YOU DO. Okay so if the odds are in my favor, I'd be studying here and I would walk around here everyday and there are feels I can't explain. (English studies and Journalism are part of college of arts & letters right....??)

So yup. This is the prologue of my college life. 

til tonight do us part

I was starting to feel like my favorite band has betrayed me, for not making any announcements, for not mentioning their band's previous achievements and for not talking about their songs and the year 2006. I was losing hope. But then, six months ago, Fall Out Boy decided to come back and save rock and roll. I was in complete and utter shock because it was all of a sudden. Well I was kind of expecting it to happen, since a lot of people from the music industry are giving off hints on twitter and other social networking sites that Fall Out Boy are coming back and are planning to have a reunion. But there are still doubts like, "Hey, this is just a hoax." I wasn't too lax on the idea of them coming back, unless the band announced it themselves. 

On the night of February 3, 2013, I was on twitter and people are starting to panic: typing on caps lock, tLAKing lieK THiss!!, and the words "fall out boy" can be seen in every tweet. I started to join the commotion as well because my feelings... can't. I read somewhere that "Fall Out Boy are making a big announcement on Q87.7 tomorrow morning!"And that's it. I started screaming and jumping and crying AND EVERYTHING FELT SO RIGHT. Everything was in place, and it felt so good to be alive. The big announcement came and then came the new single. February 4, 2013. They are officially back and no one can stop them. I still remember this post I made from February. Four years worth of waiting, those nights spent on listening to Chicago Is So Two Years Ago and feeling nostalgic. I can definitely say that it was all so worth it. 

Fast-forward to August. This is it, I thought. I'm going to see them live for the first time and I still can't believe it. And so the show began and my ten-year old self is screaming with delight and it's 2007 all over again. I remember the first time I saw them, in a magazine, confused of their identities, and why this certain guy is wearing eyeliner. Thriller's beat brought it all back and I can feel the pulse of the crowd. We were all singing and it felt glorious. 

I don't want to bore you with a long post of how I spent my Thursday night with the anti-heroes, and the band who stand up for the weirdoes. But I can definitely say that if I were to be asked about the people I look up to, Fall Out Boy will be on top of the list. Their performance is not just something we have to rate or whatsoever, it's something we have to remember. You were with the crowd, your lungs are giving out because of singing, the pulsing of the lights, the glorious feeling you get--that's something you have to keep. Fall Out Boy made it all happen. From the long wait in line to the spiels and the screaming roar of agreement of the crowd. Fall Out Boy was, as Fiel mentioned it on her blog, so raw and magnetic. I can't even put to words how amazing they are and I'm running out of adjectives. And nouns. Whatever. 

Thank you, Fall Out Boy, for not letting us down and for making us feel contagious. 

Do or Die: Part I

A few weeks back, Sam and I went to La Salle to pass our college application forms. I woke up late and wow what's new. So then I went to Sam's place and we took off. On the way to Sam's mom's place we kept on muttering things like "oh my god we're so independent," "WOW COLLEGE" "so teenager of us". It felt so different and it's like we're taking a step forward into the future and then the next day, we'll be back in the past and blah blah blah. Long story short, we can't wait for college but we also don't want to high school to end. 

And so we were greeted by the buzzing and hustling of the jeepneys and the street vendors and the smell of street food. I can't help but think how Filipino I am in the future and every single moment I take the streets of Manila, an Up Dharma Down song plays. Anyhoo, we arrived in La Salle and ran into Lara, Erika, Maye, Reisha, Max and Paola. (DID I MISS SOMEONE OMG I HOPE NOT).

The fangirling commenced between Sam and I because this sight said to hello to us. It's so big I think it can be converted into a museum. And it felt a lot like New York to me, even though I've never been to New York. The pictures don't even give justice to how big and ~industrial~ it looks in real life.

riding the escalatorZZzz wooo

This is the i-don't-knowth floor of the building. (((Ideal place for photo shoots hehe)))

People, this is the Yuchenco Hall. Judging from the tarp welcoming you at the entrance, art runs everywhere in this building (I think so. LOL if not please don't sue me). I seriously stopped and clutched my chest. It's so beautiful hhhhhh. We wanted to enter the building and ~tour~ around but we were too shy because students crowded the area and we didn't want to look like we're intruding their space. We didn't want to feel like we're the feelingera frogs HEHE. 

But much to my dismay, I wasn't able to pass my forms because my recommendation forms were incomplete and I wanted to punch myself for seventy-eight times. But whatever at least I got to explore Taft with my best friend. 

WE HAD BON CHON IN U-MALL SO COOL. Sam bought me a bracelet weeee. (I have no picture but it's cute. Thank you, Samantha).

Bon Chon is love and love is real. We love Bon Chon. Bon Chon forever. Bon Chon amen.

This plastic bag is for Lara Ackermann.

And then the awesomest thing happened. We were walking down the road looking for a jeep when we found this alley full of graffiti. I turned my head right and I stopped and gasped like GASPED. And I screamed Sam's name and we entered the place despite the "no trespassers" sign. It looks like a parking lot to me but I don't think they fit in a parking lot where people park their cars or piss on the walls behind the bumper of their cars. I want the people of Taft Avenue to renovate this place and make it look like an art gallery. 

i lyk dis a lot

This unexpected moment make me want to restore my faith in humanity. 

We went to CSB and we were thinking about going inside. But since it's already late and the admissions office were closed, we ended up sitting in one of those little things in front of the building. 

We went back to Sam's mom's place and we were so amazed by how the trip took less than 15 minutes. No traffic, just love. 

And then Sam's cute mother took us to Glorietta, along with her brother. We had J.Co and it was great. It was my first time to have J.Co and it was so good I wanna cry. And we had these little chocolate shakes and it was also very good huhu God bless J.Co.

FREE DONUT I LOVE THE WORLD

In conclusion, I liked La Salle very much. 

(Teaser: this is just part I so clearly, there will be part II. Or III.)(If you care.) 

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It's been a long time since I posted something here; I blame school. I've been doing a lot of things lately like ~studying~ and fixing my college applications. I never expected it to be this hard. Sure, picking a course is easy and planning your future is a damn piece of cake BUT IT'S NOT. I can feel the pressure looming in every corner of my periphery and I just want to crawl away and sleep forever. Just the thought of the word college irks me and boom bad thoughts everywhere, mood swings and laziness. I hate myself for thinking such things and I want everyone to shut up and sit down!!! 

Anyway Senior year is very tiring since I can't afford to have a failing grade (naks) and of course I want to be ~*better*~. I've been spending a lot of quality time with my friends--especially during lunch. I missed them so much and being surrounded with their noise and their weirdness is very lovely hehehe. Sam bought an instax and we love it very much because we look very pretty in every picture HAHAHAHA. 

Photo taken from Sam's blog! 

By the way, I saw Skins Fire already and my god, EFFY!!! As you can see she's not the same hormonal teenager anymore. I'm really surprised to see a sophisticated Effy, working in an Asset Management company. There are so many feels because EFFY IS BACK AND NOTHING HURTS (well except for the fact that her one and only true love is dead and we cannot take him back). But there is a big plot twist every fan is expecting...

 This place is so beautiful and looks so industrial, I think this season is going to be a lot more different than the others because they never really focused on the setting before as much as they did now. 

 Look at her eyes jesus christ.

 AND THIS IS THE PLOT TWIST GODDAMMIT. LOOK AT HIM. Doesn't he look like someone??? I'm freaking out, I think the writers are planning to do something and I can feel it in my bones. Effy is attracted to him because...!!!! (At least that's what I think.)

And yes, Naomi and Emily are back--Naomi was the only one who made the appearance. As for Emily, her red hair was seen for like 3 seconds and she was gone. But they live together with Effy and I am very happy to see them bonding again, just like in the previous seassons. I love these two and they might just be my favorite couple. :-( 

There is a very shocking revelation and I don't think you can handle it properly because it involves Naomi and Emily... HUHUHU.

So cute ;__;

She killed it with kisses

from rachelconn on 8tracks Radio.†

Rainy season began when May was slowly hiding and giving way for June and sadly, school has officially started and I know some of us still has that summer vibe going on in our systems and really, I can't blame you because it feels as if we ran out of time and ideas on what we should've done. I never even got the chance to go the beach and have a proper ~summer vibe~. And then I came across this really nice mix on 8tracks and I danced around the house because it sounds so good and chill and "summery". Yes, summer is over but you can always listen to this mix and forget about the stress and take a break hehehe. The first song is one of my favorites and it always puts me on a good mood (it's Passion Pit's Little Secrets and whoops sorry for the spoiler). 

Once you go Indie, you never go back. from anismattar on 8tracks Radio.

And this is another mix I found and it will surely out you on a good mood. The Naked & Famous, The Kooks, MGMT and Two Door Cinema Club. Yes, I think you're interested now in giving this mix a listen because of those four bands I mentioned. And the best part is this is a ninety-track mix. Enjoy. 

The first time I saw this video, I had goosebumps all over (and okay, maybe I cried a little) because I don't know how someone can do something like this. This is from the Glastonbury Festival, 2010. Man, how I wish I was there. This song is one of my favorites and if I were to die the next day, this will be one of the songs I would love to hear before I pass. There are times when I get sad and very hormonal and then boom, I open my computer and search this on youtube. This version of the song is one of the reasons why I'm still breathing (naks). And look at the crowd!!! So glorious. It's like the crowd is one with Florence and I think it's the best part of a concert, when you're connected with the performer and everything is perfect and nothing hurts huhu. It's like heaven is welcoming you with this angel hehehe. I would love to see Florence + The Machine live. Because I have to be there when she performs this song and it will be the best moment of my life. 
I don't like being very articulate when it comes to writing down my feelings but when it comes to songs, you can't stop me HAHAHA. Just listen to these songs and you will be ~happy and gay~ (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ *:･ﾟ